A New Perspective...

It has been quite some time since I posted anything here, but I was reading another blog and felt inspired. That blog is written by a young man who is quadrapalegic. He is a tremendous source of strength and inspiration. Today was his 1 year blog-anniversary and he wrote that he has had 900,000 hits. I discovered his site on the msn home page last year and I check in regularly. Anyhow, here is someone who has managed to find meaning and purpose in his life when seemingly he could have taken a very different road. I have spent a lot of my life afraid of so many things...remember that REM song "Oh no I've said too much". But I have been changing that. Kenny (that's the name of the msn blog-guy) has changed my perspective and so has working for a hospice. I want to remember that one day I will die so that I live more fully, less afraid, courageous and strong with all my faults and foibles. I had a bone removed from my foot recently. I have been isolated and lonely. It sucks to be even temporarily disabled but I can get up and walk, granted it's 3 months later and I am still in pain, but what about Kenny? He can't feel pain in his foot anymore..never will. He used to be a sports junkie and now he is a writer inspiring so many people to live more fully. I was very depressed the other day (ok, mainly it came from seeing my parents but that is a different story) but I hit a bottom...I want to live, I want to be happy..."Today is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice in it". Sometimes it comes naturally, sometimes I HAVE to will, but heck I'm glad I'm glad I've lived another day, reached another hot summer in NYC. Last night I got to play with a Russian wolfhound AND an Irish wolfhound...yes in New York City...nothing beat the doggie love...So I will keep my chin up and I hope you do to...(but I will be there when it's down). blessings...Rena